maybe i'm just boring...

Nah... Have actually been a busy bee, that's what Summertime brings. That was the longest I've gone with blogging. Oopsie!

Hi anyone that's still checking for updates. I've had a ton of stuff going on... Where to start?

My honey is moving home. In 10 days. I absolutely cannot believe that the time I've been waiting for, 3 years in the making, is finally about to happen. He told his boss straight up yesterday, "I'm moving on the 20th, job or no job." Can you believe it?!?!?!?!! We're crossing our fingers that the final answer on him working from home is going to be positive today. It's unbelievable but true. We also have a backup plan if his current job falls through... A company he applied and interviewed for in February contacted him last week and there is a possibility that an opening has become available and they said he is a "viable candidate" for the position.

What else you ask? Since hubby-to-be is moving home and we've made it this long without living together, I've been looking at apartments for him. Now, I have no idea how we are going to be able to NOT stay together EVERY night until the wedding, but we're going to try. Yes, I am a good future-wife, I will continue to live with my in-laws until the wedding. ACK! I cannot believe I've agreed to this, and it is completely possible that I may change my mind in a month, but that's the plan for now.

Speaking of apartments... Do you know how much I hate them? I've gotten spoiled over the past 5 years. I had a huge 2400 sq ft house, then I moved into my super cute "finding Tara" house for 3 years, and now I'm living in my own "wing" at the in-laws. I look at apartments and I hate the dingy little things - the countertops, the carpet, the closets. They all pretty much suck but like T said, it's only temporary. I keep forgetting that we have a foosball table (not TaraTot approved) so we have to get a pretty good-sized 2 bedroom and the only ones we can really afford are old. Yuck.

I haven't told anyone this other super exciting news... I haven't smoked since Saturday night. My best friend's mom starts radiation for throat cancer (40 year smoker) and I am trying my damnedest to quit so I don't end up like her. I am too young and too beautiful to continue harming myself like that. And it's really not that great. I've done well so far, the cravings have been minimal, but I haven't gone out yet or done anything that would tempt me. I have actually made myself stay home because all of my friends smoke and it would be too easy to pick one up.

I found a really great support group for endometriosis and I have been dealing with a lot of girlie issues lately. Won't go into detail about that but let me tell you, have sympathy on anyone you know with endo. It's horrible and awful and painful, and you cannot understand it unless you have it. Ladies, it's not in your head. The one thing that makes us a woman can also make us more miserable than any other thing in the world. That's my two cents on that for today.

Are you ready for the wedding update? Four months and fifteen days. I think I'm going to put a counter up on the side, but when I see one, it really makes my hands sweat.

I'm still playing soccer, except our season has been screwed up with power outages and such. We have a double header this weekend, hopefully we'll kick some ass in our new league. I'm also still working out. I am up to 2 miles on the eliptical in 20 minutes, which is pretty damn amazing if you ask me. I tried it outside on the track behind the house and I still did 2 mi/20 mins but I couldn't run the whole thing, I thought I broke my lung. Just more inspiration to quit smoking. At first I could only 1.25 miles in 20 mins so I've already improved greatly. I look better now than I have in a long time. I curl 40 lbs, no problems and I can finally do a damn pushup. Boy style. Word up!

Okay, time for a celebratory luncheon for my long ass, 7 years of wonderfulness at this J O B that I love so much. Blah. New restaurant though - I'll let ya know how it is.

I'm going to be better about blogging, I promdiggityomise.

hmpf

This whole job situation with Toddles has been frustrating - for him. He still has not heard from this guy but the guy keeps telling our friend that he wants to interview T, so it's like WTF? And something else... I made a deal with him that if he got a huge raise, like over 10k, then I would move there. And now he's gotten a couple of calls offering that much. What is that? Destiny stepping in or something?

I had a wonderful weekend for the most part. I visited pretty much everyone I know in OKC, family-wise anyhow.

Friday I woke up feeling like shit. After overdosing on vitamin C, echinachea, and alsparagus root juice crap, I thought I would be able to fight it off. I made it to OKC early that afternoon and managed to see both of my brothers, the preggie sister-in-law, dad's girlfriend, grandpa and grandma, and a cousin, all after a little shopping trip. The cousin, one bro, and his girlfriend and I went out for a bit that night to a decent little bar.

Saturday was my big girl's day. The 3 C's came down about noon and we met at the Cheesecake Factory. Can anyone guess what I had? Yes, fried mac & cheese... *drooling* It was soooooooo incredibly good. No cheesecake for any of us though. We headed to the mall and tried to find shirts for the night. We all succeeded but by the time it was finished I was about ready to pull my hair out and started doubting my outfit choice. It was time to get out of the mall, we all needed caffeine and ciggies! We left to check into our very fabulous and swanky hotel. After we got unpacked and coffee made we vegged around and enjoyed the break. The four of us ladies started getting ready for the night... We ended up looking so hot. I mean HOT HOT. We cabbed it to a friend's bar and had a few beers. Then he drove us to the club and we mingled. All in all, we had a really great time. We ended up taking the same cab four times that night (thanks Betty!) because we had to eat after the bar closed. Word to the wise, never, EVER, let a cabbie take you to a truck stop breakfast buffet at 2 a.m. EVER. I thought I had rot-gut the next morning when I woke up. Ugh. Oh, and if you start to lose your voice, don't try to scream and yell to make it go all the way. It really hurts. I can hardly speak today.

Sunday was a loooooong day. We hadn't slept much because one of the C's snored and coughed all night long. I went to my other grandparent's house for a visit and coffee, and to get the courage to get ready to go get the things I wanted out of my great-gram's house. I finally got ready to go and met my grandpa over there. What a nightmare. The house was a pit, her stuff was all gone, and my family had taken every last thing that meant anything already. I got the stuff that no one else wanted, but it's okay because it means more to me than them. After that was finally over and I made my peace with everything I called my other Gram for an early dinner. We visited for four hours and I made my way to the nursing home to see Grandma.

More on that in another post.

I made my way home and cried it out. All of the stress and tension from my family tapped me completely. I was emotionally worn out. I turned the tv on and turned my brain off and tried to sleep. I coughed for over 30 minutes and thought I was going to the ER because I was so short of breath but I managed to recover. That brings me to today....

Happy Monday yo...

update

No real job news just yet. The hiring manager called T last night at 8:00 p.m. On a Sunday. For an interview. Weird huh? He told the guy that we were having dinner with family and that he would have to call him on Monday morning for a proper interview. Guy was cool with it so whatever.

I think he's got it in the bag. I asked Toddles last night if I could be a stay at home mom, he said no because we don't have a kid to stay at home with. I said fine, can I be a stay at home wife?

He said no. What a party pooper.

wishes

I am going to ask my bloggies to say their prayers to the job fairy/god/guru - my dear Beloved has applied for a job here and he's got a phone interview coming up. I'm trying really hard not to get too excited because this is the first application but it is sounding good for him.

Wowsas...

Good thing, the wedding is 7 months and 27 days away and I'm kinda going to need to live in the same state as my husband.

I'll keep this updated as we find more out.

On another note, my wedding diet has started again, full swing. I've got 25 lbs to lose and as of this week I've lost 2. 23lbs to go!

I've been really good this week. I've only got to exercise once because it's been butt-ass cold and windy outside. On the downside, my sugars dropped really low on Monday night and I thought I was going to go into a coma at my favorite bar in the bathroom.

My Meals This Week: (Breakfast) (Lunch) (Snack) (Dinner)
Monday: (B) oatmeal (S) toast w/ pb (L) chicken, 1 C brussel sprouts, 1/2 C cottage cheese, and 1/4 C granola (S) apple (D) 4 oz. steak, 1 C mixed veggies, 1 C salad. (S) 2 vodka crans

Tuesday: (B) oatmeal (L) 4 oz. steak, 1 C mixed veggies, 1/2 C cottage cheese, and 1/4 C granola (S) apple (D) 2 C whole wheat pasta with peas, spinach, onion, and poached chicken.

Wednesday: (B) 1/2 C cottage cheese and 1/4 C granola (L) Greek chicken salad and 1/2 pita with 2 tbsp hummus (D) roast beef and swiss on whole wheat with mustard, apple

Thursday: (B) toast w/ pb 1/4 C cottage cheese and granola (L) 1 1/2 C pasta with peas, spinach, onion, and poached chicken. (D) grilled chicken, broccoli and carrots, apple.

Friday: (B)oatmeal (L) grilled chicken, broccoli and carrots (D) sushi from Asahi - samauri roll and a spicy scallop roll.