really?

Seriously? Not one luxury apartment in Tulsa?

That's right folks. We. Cannot. Find. A. Stupid. Apartment.

We have called everyday since Sunday, asking if something has come available in 7 different complexes with no luck unless we want to pay over $900 and live on the third floor. I don't freakin think so. And then of course, I've been scouring the 'net looking for a nice condo or rent house and we can't find any of those either. I don't know if it's because the whole damn country is in a recession and everyone is foreclosing on their homes so they're in apartments or if it's because kids are back from college or what but it's making me crazy.

We have one last little game plan and then it's back to the ghetto. Not really, we just won't have 9 foot ceilings, frisee carpet, and nice cabinets. Boooo.

My neck is still effed up from the soccer game on Sunday. I got four shots on Monday and they didn't give me any relief so my boss sent me for a MRI. We're still waiting on those results. Good thing it's not broken, huh? BossDoc seems to think I have stenosis on the left side because it's still constantly hurting. I've doped up on pain pills and muscle relaxers since Monday. BossDoc also told me make sure I keep pooping, which is really kind of funny to hear from your boss. Any poop story is funny to me though. Anyhow - we're waiting on those results to see if I am going to have to have more injections. I just want be able to sleep normal again.

The transition from long distance to one teeny room has been smooth so far. We're getting along, having fun, and doing fun couple stuff. We've been staying super busy so that we're not smooshed in one room until we get a place to live. I think the only we've argued over has been the stupid TV, I want to watch my girl shows and he wants to watch his man shows. It's funny.

That's it for now, happy Thursday to all.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, I'm just a little pumped...

We found out last night that T gets to keep his job and we're both so relieved and excited that we could fly over the moon. We don't have to buy a computer either. All he has to do is pack and come home. It's completely unbelievable but totally exciting, I feel like we got engaged all over again or something.

It was really hard not to smoke last night because I needed to settled down from the commotion but I didn't. Did not smoke. Go me. That was the hardest craving yet.

My baby's comin home in 9 days!!!!!!!!!

The whole world should be as excited as I am!!!

wishes

I am going to ask my bloggies to say their prayers to the job fairy/god/guru - my dear Beloved has applied for a job here and he's got a phone interview coming up. I'm trying really hard not to get too excited because this is the first application but it is sounding good for him.

Wowsas...

Good thing, the wedding is 7 months and 27 days away and I'm kinda going to need to live in the same state as my husband.

I'll keep this updated as we find more out.

On another note, my wedding diet has started again, full swing. I've got 25 lbs to lose and as of this week I've lost 2. 23lbs to go!

I've been really good this week. I've only got to exercise once because it's been butt-ass cold and windy outside. On the downside, my sugars dropped really low on Monday night and I thought I was going to go into a coma at my favorite bar in the bathroom.

My Meals This Week: (Breakfast) (Lunch) (Snack) (Dinner)
Monday: (B) oatmeal (S) toast w/ pb (L) chicken, 1 C brussel sprouts, 1/2 C cottage cheese, and 1/4 C granola (S) apple (D) 4 oz. steak, 1 C mixed veggies, 1 C salad. (S) 2 vodka crans

Tuesday: (B) oatmeal (L) 4 oz. steak, 1 C mixed veggies, 1/2 C cottage cheese, and 1/4 C granola (S) apple (D) 2 C whole wheat pasta with peas, spinach, onion, and poached chicken.

Wednesday: (B) 1/2 C cottage cheese and 1/4 C granola (L) Greek chicken salad and 1/2 pita with 2 tbsp hummus (D) roast beef and swiss on whole wheat with mustard, apple

Thursday: (B) toast w/ pb 1/4 C cottage cheese and granola (L) 1 1/2 C pasta with peas, spinach, onion, and poached chicken. (D) grilled chicken, broccoli and carrots, apple.

Friday: (B)oatmeal (L) grilled chicken, broccoli and carrots (D) sushi from Asahi - samauri roll and a spicy scallop roll.

changes

It was a bittersweet weekend.

I turned in the keys to my "super cute little house" on Saturday. It's been a really odd experience. Three years ago I was completely heartbroken and looking for a new home. My then-boyfriend was cheating on me, after I had raised his precious children and made a home with him for two years. I was sad and sick and really pathetic. Then I found this awesome little house that was full of color and cheer and just what I needed to start a new chapter in my life. I left the asshole and started a new life for myself. I started becoming friends with my Toddles again. I did the things that I wanted to do, not what someone else expected me to do. I got healthy again. I got happy again. It was a big turning point in my life because I really thought it was over for awhile.

The past month has been another life-changing experience. I have cried and laughed and lifted more boxes than I have in forever. I moved "back home" with my future in-laws. I'm getting married in 10 months. I'm in love and really happy for the first time in a bit. I'm getting out of debt and making a good life for myself, again. It's makes the whole marriage thing seem more real now that I'm sacrificing and bettering things for someone else. I swore three years ago I would never do this again. I wasn't going to fall in love, I wasn't going to give anything up for anyone, and I certainly didn't think I'd be moving in with the 'rents and losing some of my independence. Things change though. People grow up, fall in love, and makes dreams together.
I'm going to have my very own little family of two next year and that makes me so incredibly happy. *insert super happy tears here*

I'll stop being mushy but it really has been crazy in my world lately.

Did anyone else notice that we just slipped into December and it's already the fourth day, with twenty-one days to go until Christmas? Yeah, I just did. I haven't done any shopping yet but I have made my crazy organized list and I'm ready to start. Oh, but wait - I don't have my bonus yet. Thanks Bossman, make us wait until the last minute. I actually am going to get started with what I can this week. Not paying rent has it's advantages.

Tonight I have my first appointment with one of the photographers we've chosen for the wedding. I really wish T was here to go with me but I can manage on my own. I seriously only have 8 free days to myself this month. That is nuts! I was trying to pick a day to go to OKC for some Christmas shopping and it's like, duuuuuh Tara - you really shouldn't do that. Check this out: 2 photog appointments this week, two Christmas parties this weekend, work dinner, bunco, poker, December birthday dinner, and an ornament party next week; girls' night and then a 3 day break. Then it's off to St. Louis for the Steelers/Rams game, come home 2 days later, Christmas with Mom, T's fam, my fam, and taaadaaa! It's Christmas! Then it's my birthday and I turn the awful 27 and next thing you know it's freakin 2008.

Hopefully I won't have another breakdown between now and then. Peace y'all.

accomplishment.

Woohoo! The big weekend is over and we got so much finished. Here's the play by play:

Wednesday - I finished packing. I got this OCD thing going for this move and was super organized throughout the entire move. Everything was boxed, labeled, and ready to go when T arrived that night.
Thursday - Thanksgiving. We spent the day in OKC with my fam, had dinner, and were home by 8:00. It was our only scheduled day off for the whole weekend. Dinner was nice, my family was being a little odd but it was still a nice holiday.
Friday - Move my room. Toddles and I got up at a decent time and prepared for the day. I was hyper, crazy lady when I woke up from all of the excitement. T wasn't really ready for all that until I got him his fav McD's breakfast. We moved all of my room into his Dad's house in two trips. His stepmom's family was there so they helped us unload some of the stuff. We got everything put together and sleepable by the time dinner was ready at 4:00. We stuffed our faces and played poker that night. We also made it to Target to get some more things for my room.
Saturday - Ugh... We're tired by this day. We got around and made it to the old house to move all of my boxes. It was cold and we both wanted to be cozied up in bed. We got everything loaded into two cars and made it to the storage unit in no time. Unloaded and it was time to go to his brother's for another family meal. We grabbed some pizza and watched the OU/OSU game. After that it was time to hang with all of our friends. We drank our aches and pains away and called it a night after a few too many drinks.
Sunday - Oops. T has a nasty hangover. I feel fine but I do NOT want to get out of bed. We wake up late and our helper is already calling. I tell him we need another hour. Thank God he's such a nice guy. We meet up at the house, move the big stuff - W/D, fridge, couch, etc to storage. Get done. Go eat. Go sleep. We were so tired that we slept for 3 hours yesterday. I think it all caught up with us.
Now all I have to do is clean out the house and I'm finished. It feels so good to have had such a stress-free move. T said it's because I rock and had everything ready to go. I couldn't agree more.
I've been happier this past week than I have in a long time. I truly believe it's because I got rid of all the bad shit in my life and I am preparing for a fresh start with my Beloved. I feel clean, refreshed, and organized for once. It is amazing!

Oh, the wedding countdown is 10 months, 29 days. Yikes!

Hope everyone had a really nice Thanksgiving. Get any shopping done?